Real Talk? This is one of the most rewarding experiences I’ve ever had. And as a result it can be really difficult. I feel like I spend a good amount of time on here talking about all the wonderful things that happen and tend to ignore the negative. Well, honestly, April was a tough month for me. A lot of things just weren’t coming together –
– This wasn’t my best month at work
– Bank issues leading to student loan issues -_-
– I had to say goodbye to some people I’ve grown really close to
– Issues with my landlord
Just to name a few. And while all of these issues can happen at “home”, the emotions and frustrations they bring to the table are heightened when you add cultural differences, language barriers etc. I’m not going to lie, there were moments when I found myself thinking crazy thoughts like “Sonja, you can always go home.”
Um halluphallauphallup haaaalllup!
Once I entertained that thought for a brief second, I had to remind myself that this is all part of the process. I didn’t uproot my life to give it 4 months and return home. I am not a quitter. And if one of my favorite movies, A League of Their Own, taught me anything it’s that “there’s no crying in baseball”. I still have goals that I need to see through. The only way I am going to do that is by getting back up every time I’m knocked down. Acknowledge what went wrong and try again. I don’t want to be whiny on here, I just want to be honest and well, “real”. You can’t have the good without the bad, and things can only get better from here.
Needless to say I am excited for May. It may not bring flowers (as we are moving into winter) but I am sure my disposition will be brighter.